I haven’t posted in a bit. I apologize. Our family was hit with a loss. It doesn’t feel real. Each day now is looked at in a new light. I look at my family and my friends so differently. I have taken all these people for granted. I thought our lives together were invincible. Rarely have we ever faced a death like this. So sudden, so close, a bit too close.

Times like these we bring into question God’s will in all this. How could he do this to such a kind, compassionate and fun loving person? How can he do this to such a beautiful family? It doesn’t make sense, but yet it shouldn’t. His work is done in mysterious ways. We may never begin to understand God’s plan in all this but never doubt that He is there. His grace and His love never fails. We were looking for a miracle, praying for a miracle when in fact the miracle was happening all around us. We were  praying together, letting go of the anger, letting go of the hurt.

The healing has begun, yet the wounds are still so raw. We are closer now than we were ever before. This was my ammachi’s (grandmother) prayer. It was the cry of her heart. Thinking about the days ahead seems so daunting, but there is a comfort and a peace that only God can provide.

Hillary Scott – Thy Will

From the album Love Remains

I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here

I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about

It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am not
So

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store

I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
So

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

Like a child on my knees
All that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord

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Writer(s): Hillary Scott, Emily Weisband and Bernie Herms